morning cup of anxiety

I am incredibly nervous. You know not the stomach kind. but the kind where there’s this plug that starts right above your chest. All the brain activity, the constant unfinished answers in there, stuck spinning around and around, causing the chest area to feel clogged, and it seems a bit harder to breath. So you breath faster, or less often. This is the cue to start taking in long, deep breaths. inhale, exhale. Why I forget to breathe:  I’m searching for the next thing to do, to finish, that is challenging enough but easy enough to feel some accomplishment for the day. usually, I use food to feel this accomplishment. Unfortunately, after you’re full, it does not solve anything. So instead of running around, barking at everyone as a way to let off steam, maybe I should draw that fucking picture.